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29 March 2009 @ 11:00 pm
You're the only one who can break me down like this (3/?)  
Title: You're the only one who can break me down like this (3/?)
Author: Jenny (dazzledjem)
Pairing: Robert Pattinson / Kristen Stewart
Rating: Right now PG-13 for some swearing, but will probably turn into M later.
Word Count: 2 052.
Disclaimer: Don't know them, don't own them.
Summary: “And then he watched her disappear out into the dark night just as their song came to an end."
Note: Continuation of Japan. I just wanted to take a moment to say thank you to everyone who reads and comments this, it means a lot to me! :) And as always, English is not my first language, so please excuse any grammar mistakes. And feedback is always appreciated.

Kristen began singing her part perfectly, not taking even one false tone.

It's a little bit funny this feeling inside, I'm not one of those who can easily hide, I don't have much money but boy if I did, I'd buy a big house where we both could live

Only silence came from Robert’s mouth when he opened it to sing his part. But after throwing a quick glance at Hugh, and then looking into Kristen’s eyes, he realized he needed to shape up.

… a sculptor, but then again, no, or a man who makes potions in a travelling show, I know it's not much but it's the best I can do, my gift is my song and this one's for you

They locked eyes with each other unconsciously before beginning to sing the refrain.

And you can tell everybody this is your song, it may be quite simple but now that it's done, I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind that I put down in words how wonderful life is while you're in the world

As they sang it, they both forgot the outside world and that there were people actually watching them do this. All they could see were each other. The lyrics came naturally.

Robert began singing the third verse, this time perfectly from the beginning.

I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss, well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song, it's for people like you that keep it turned on

He couldn’t help but think of all those songs he had written to her, or while thinking of her. He had them all written down somewhere; he usually just grabbed whatever kind of paper that was near when the words came to him. Now they were all collected in a black folder he had with him everywhere he traveled – he felt like those words were private, and he didn’t want anyone to find them. The only one he would ever consider playing or showing them to was the woman who was standing opposite him, with a small smile on her lips while he sang, until it was her turn again.

So excuse me forgetting but these things I do, you see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean, yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

She didn’t know if she would describe his eyes as sweet, but they were definitely something. ‘Something’ like eyes that saw right through her, despite all those walls she put up in her attempts to stop him, and to stop what she was feeling before it went way out of hand and became something she couldn’t handle. That had failed completely.

Before any of them knew it, the song had come to an end. They both felt like it was too soon, even though they were standing in front all of those cheering people. Part of it was because neither of them wanted to look away. Another part of it because neither of them was looking forward to the highly postponed talked they would probably have later.

She was the first one to look away, for she had always been the one with the most doubts, and the one with the most restrictions and chains holding her back. She looked out over the crowd. They were still cheering, and she could hear someone whistling, which turned out to be Hugh. She nearly could have guessed it was him; he always seemed so enthusiastic about everything, like there wasn’t anything to worry about in this world. She had been like that once, life had been as good as it could be, or so she had thought. She had a strange feeling though that she could feel even happier if she was in a real relationship with Rob. She wanted to try, but at the same time she was so scared. Of failing. Losing him. She could handle them being just friends if it would fail, but she would not be able to handle losing him completely. He put his hand on her back to lead her down from the stage, it suddenly felt very awkward standing in front of at least fifty people, just standing, looking into each other’s eyes.

Once they were down, he still didn’t remove his hand, even though it wasn’t necessary keeping it there anymore. Kristen could see her manager looking at her as if she was crazy. She sighed a little; couldn’t she ever just get to be Kristen instead of Kristen, movie star?

Robert threw a quick glance at Hugh, but he just smiled and Robert got the suspicion that he was up to something more. At least they weren’t to blame for whatever happened next. He saw him walking closer and closer, until he was almost right next to them. He accidentally bumped into Kristen so her whole body was now turned against him. Accidentally, yeah right, he thought just before he stiffened hearing the song that started. He felt her tensing too. They had danced to this one once before, and it was a common favorite. Beside You by Van Morrison.

“May I?” he asked. It felt like a tradition, and he didn’t want to be the one to break it. She nodded in agreement, and he wrapped his arms around her waist. Out of old habit, he lifted her up for a moment and sat her down on his feet. It was another tradition he didn’t want to break.

Little Jimmy's gone way out of the back street, out of the window, into the falling rain,
Right on time, right on time, that's why Broken Arrow waved his finger,
Down the road, so dark and narrow, in the evening, just before the Sunday six-bells chime, six-bells chime,

He was sure not many of the people that were present had even heard the song. The only ones he knew that know about it was Kristen and Hugh. And he had been with Kristen the entire time, so Hugh had to be the one that had asked the DJ to play this one. He was both grateful and pissed off for it, he didn’t want to become too emotional and remember their earlier days if she would just go back to him again.

And all the dogs are barking way down on the garbage studded highway, where you wander and you roam from your retreated view, way over on the railroad, tomorrow all the tipping trucks will unload together, everywhere the scrapbooks built together stuck with glue
And I'll stand beside you, beside you

He moved them around slowly, never wanting this moment to end. It seemed so intimate, even though they were far from being alone. Maybe he did have to thank Hugh later.

“What are you thinking?” she suddenly asked him, breaking the silence between them.

“I’m trying not to think too much,” he replied honestly. “I’m just enjoying the moment. What about you?”

“Same here,” she replied in a low voice.

Oh child, to never wonder why, to never, never, never, never wonder why at all
To never, never, never, never wonder why it's got to be, it has to be,

Way across the country where the hillside mountains glide, the dynamo of your smile caressed the barefoot virgin child, to wander past your window in the lantern lit, you held it in the doorway and you cast against the pointed idle breeze, you said your time was open go well on your merry way

He looked into her eyes, and she looked back at him. He felt like he should do something, say something, but at the same time he didn’t want to ruin the moment.

Past the praise and footlights of the silence easy
you breathe in, you breathe out, you breathe in, you breathe out
you breathe in, you breathe out, you breathe in, you breathe out
and you're high on a high-flying cloud, wrapped up in your magic shroud,
ecstasy surrounds you, this time it's found you

He wanted to kiss those lips one more time, but he feared for her reaction. Would she kiss him back or would she pull away and slap him? Hate him forever? He saw her bite her lip ever so slowly, and it just made him want to kiss her even more. But was what the worst thing that could happen? They had kissed before, and she hadn’t seemed to mind it then. If he made it quick, no one would see. And besides, he couldn’t spot any paparazzi inside the small pub.

Kristen looked at him carefully, wondering if she should say something, but she didn’t want to make anything worse. Then he suddenly placed two fingers under her chin and held her face up, and then his lips came closer and closer to hers. Just as he was about to press his lips to hers, she felt a hand on her arm.

“Kristen,” she heard her agent say in a disapproving tone. His fingers quickly disappeared and she didn’t want to feel as disappointed as she did.


“I think it’s time we leave. You have a long day ahead of you.”

“But I just…”

“No buts. Come with me.”

She looked at Robert with disappointment and sorrow in her eyes. She mouthed an “I’m sorry” and he mouthed back an “I understand” as a reply. Then he slowly squeezed her hand and proceeded to stroke it with his thumb, all without her agent’s knowledge. Then she was harshly pulled away from him, although all she wanted to do was to stay here with him and forget who she was, if only for a night.

He hated seeing her walk away. He hated that he was Robert Pattinson and that she was Kristen Stewart. He hated everyone that was standing in their way. But no matter how much he wanted to from time to time, he couldn’t hate her. He just needed to talk to her, because they had never had the chance to do that tonight. He quickly hurried up to Hugh.

“I’m sorry for sort of playing match-maker, but I just feel that you two would…” Hugh began.

He wouldn’t hear it.

“Do you have a pen?”


“A pen!” he said in a somewhat high voice, but he lowered it because he didn’t want anyone else to hear. “Do you have a pen? Quick.”

“Oh, of course.” He quickly reached his hand inside the front pocket of his jacket and then held up a pen just a moment later. “Here you go.”

“Thanks.” Robert took it and then grabbed a white napkin from a table nearby. On it, he wrote “Room 762. I’ll wait for you.” with his clumsy handwriting. The last sentence had a double meaning, and he hoped that she would understand that he would wait, but also that he couldn’t wait forever and just feel his heart crumble into tiny, broken pieces. But then again it would probably just feel wrong to be with another woman after being with her. He had tried occasionally, but no one had been able to make him feel like she did. He quickly interrupted his thoughts, he didn’t have time to stand here and think. He just needed to give her the note, and hope that she would be at his doorstep later that night.

Just as she was nearing the exit, she felt another hand on her other arm. She turned around and was about to snap at the person when she saw it was him. She nearly could have guessed, it was a much more gentle touch than what her agent had used. He placed his finger to his lips, motioning for her to be quiet. Then he slowly lifted her hand, opened it and placed a folded napkin in it. She looked confused, but he just nodded at her and then closed her hand. She smiled a little at him as he gave her hand a small stroke with his thumb before he let it down. And then he watched her disappear out into the dark night just as their song came to an end.
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( 18 comments — Leave a comment )
nadine2001nadine2001 on March 29th, 2009 09:50 pm (UTC)
*sigh* again a great and an amazing update. This is how it could have happened with both of them singing. I wish we knew. But again so emotional. With their dance to their song. And then the manager. Someone has to be the bad guy in his story. Thanks again for shating your story with us.
dazzledjemdazzledjem on March 30th, 2009 01:50 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! :)
yashi1387yashi1387 on March 29th, 2009 10:05 pm (UTC)
loved this part !!!! great chapter !!!
dazzledjemdazzledjem on March 30th, 2009 01:51 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :)
Amalinakellneriner on March 29th, 2009 10:39 pm (UTC)
SIGH. THis is soo good. And it's purely coincidental that 'Beside You' was playing on my iTunes when that 'Beside You' part came up. Him lifting her onto his feet - too sweet.
Oh and I could never guess you're not a native speaker. Your English is good. :)
dazzledjemdazzledjem on March 30th, 2009 01:51 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! :)
alo12 on March 30th, 2009 02:05 am (UTC)
Beautiful! I love this fic sfm :)
dazzledjemdazzledjem on March 30th, 2009 01:57 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! :)
Carly: Schmerblescarolina_hope on March 30th, 2009 05:01 am (UTC)
so sad yet still so beautiful. and I agree, Hugh is most probably Team Schmerbles. or at least I hope he is. and I love the role you gave him in this story. cant wait for the talk. its long overdue
dazzledjemdazzledjem on March 30th, 2009 01:57 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :)
Yes1990yes1990 on April 5th, 2009 01:47 pm (UTC)
dazzledjemdazzledjem on April 5th, 2009 01:50 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :)
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dazzledjemdazzledjem on April 5th, 2009 05:46 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! :)
hopeful9hopeful9 on April 29th, 2009 12:02 pm (UTC)
great writing. it really sounds like them. sad but beautiful.
dazzledjemdazzledjem on April 29th, 2009 03:10 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :)
monika116k on July 31st, 2009 01:47 pm (UTC)
Wow I just started reading your stories!!! I love them!!! Going on part 4.
dazzledjemdazzledjem on July 31st, 2009 07:06 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :)
krismac19116krismac19116 on October 24th, 2009 01:13 pm (UTC)
OMG! This story is CRAZY GOOD! It's one of the absolute BEST R/K Fanfics I've read! Thank you SO much for sharing this with us! I CANNOT wait until an update!
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